I did it

I graduated tonight.






It feels so good to finally say that.

(I've had this song in my head ALL DAY)

bye bye high school

on Thursday it was my last day of high school. It was a bittersweet moment. The day felt somewhat normal until I reached my TA class, where I basically spent the whole year learning how to teach a class. For most of the year i hated the class full of freshman, they were all so unmotivated to learn, and at times annoying due to their lack of understanding or immature jokes. But on the last day i realized how much I love that damn class and how much I'm going to miss them. My teacher for that class was Miss Graham, probably the best most influential person in my life. I'm most definitely going to miss her. If it weren't for her I would never be going into teaching. We still have graduation and gradnite to see each other, but after that I am going to miss her more than anybody at that school.

In my 6th period I also had to say an emotional goodbye to a teacher who I also really connected with. I promised to stay in contact with him by email, but still I'm going to miss him incredibly. 

On thursdayI also went with a few friends to Santa Monica beach to spend the day and then go to the Moonrise Kingdom midnight premiere at the arclight. The film was amazing (I'll post a blog on it later), so amazing that I saw it twice already and I plan on seeing it again soon. (I also saw Chris Colfer from Glee in Starbucks but he left while we were fangirling in the corner so we didn't get to talk to him. Oh how I'm going to miss random celeb sightings once I leave)

 I did my nails in colors inspired by Sam and Suzy.

 the arclight bathroom is AMAZING

I saw it on saturday again, this time with my mom and dad, whom also love Wes Anderson.

my friend Saira took a few pictures of my morning group. i spent every morning of senior year with them and I'm going to miss that so much. But anyway - here we are doing an exaggerated version of the "Saira Pose". 

Here is also my very last picture in my high school bathroom. I definitely won't miss those mirrors. 

On saturday I also went with my parents to Bottega Louie for some dinner. It was sweet. 

I also got a few graduation presents, the vinyl I bought as a gift for myself, but the rest was from my parents. The Criterion Collection version of The Darjeeling Limited (my favorite movie) and One Direction's Dare To Dream. 

Up next on wednesday: Graduation. 

All Alright

Life thus far

Okay! Here's a real fast update on my life so far. 

Prom was great, I had a wonderful time dancing all the 4 hours with all my great friends. 

This past thursday I met up with a few friends in pomona to see the wonderful Ed Sheeran. It was single handedly the most captivating performance of my life. One man with no backing band, just a guitar and a microphone on a huge stage in a huge theater stole the show from the headliners Snow Patrol. It was seriously one of the best moments of my life.

And finally, on friday I went to Diamond Bar to see Karen's final dance concert of the year. Us and Sarah went to Brea to get some food, where I came across one of the cutest bakeries ever: Merely Sweets. Then while they rehearsed I went with Kelly to Denny's, where we hung out until the concert started. The concert was wonderful, the girls did so good! I'm so proud of them and so sad that it's the last one of theirs that I'm going to get to attend... Anyway, our night ended by going to CPK in Chino Hills and blasting Lostprophets' Liberation Transmission on the way home \m/

Expectations

     Growing up we are bombarded with images of over the top romance not only shown by adults but by teenagers. Take those signature 80s movies - teen romance is supposed to be grand, bigger than life itself, it sets us up for this expectation for what our lives should be like. Growing up I saw and continue to see romance in everything, it's the biggest flaw of mine. And just as the rest of the generations who grew up watching Rat Pack movies I expected chivalry and grand romance to happen to myself during my teenage years. None of that ever happened. I was never swept off my feet in, never wooed, never saved by the love of a boy. I'm not so much disappointed about those expectations that didn't come true, but the one about prom, on the other hand, has caused me to feel a bit ... sad. If there was one thing I wanted during my teen years, it was to have the ultimate prom. Yes, I've gotten a nice dress. Yes, I'm doing my hair how I wanted. But I never got the most important thing that any girl wants: I never got that date. I didn't get romantically asked out through a grand gesture. I'm not matching with someone like I wanted to, to go along with my 1960s themed outfit. And as cheesy as it sounds, I wanted to slow dance instead of being one of those people standing on the sides of the dance floor while all the couples do, and I wanted to get a picture that is so horrible that I could laugh at in years but remember how happy I was at the time. I know I sound overdramatic and whiny, but I just wish one of my teenage expectations came true. But with prom tomorrow and graduation drawing close, I've come to realize none of that will come true and I'm stuck whining about the fact that high school pretty much sucked. It was nothing like I expected, nothing like what I wanted, and I couldn't be more excited for it to be ending. I'm not excited for prom, very excited for graduation, and absolutely thrilled to be starting my life very soon. Only this time, for college I've got no John Hughes movies to influence the expectations I've yet to have.

May!

Wow, it's been too long since I've updated you blogspot! Let's see, in the past week I've gotten to meet Lauren Conrad, spend a whole week in the school gym for senior week (which was boring and spent most of my time reading or watching Doctor Who on my phone), getting back to my novelist roots and writing like an mad man, and now that it's May I now have only 28 more days left of high school!

Along with this month comes an Ed Sheeran show next week, Sherlock season 2 premiering this sunday, and oh yeah, prom. I'm not exactly excited to have to be coming home past midnight on cinco de mayo from one of the worst parts of LA, but my school is stupid and scheduled it on a horrible day. So hopefully I make it to another blog post! haha.

My school has recently blocked my 4th period from going on nearly every good website, so I've spent the last month obsessing over wedding websites, since they seem to be the only things not blocked so I figure I'd find show you guys a few of my favorite courtesy of greenweddingshoes.com.

fyi if you haven't noticed by now I want a very rustic wedding with lots of sweets and pastel colors, preferably in/on a Welsh field.