it's been a LONG time

well, it's been a long time, blog! Sorry I've neglected you so much. But don't worry I'll have a lot of stories very soon, as I move to Chicago on the 23rd of this month. Life is about to get real and I've never been more excited in my life.

Chicago!

This past week I visited my future home, Chicago. I did a lot of shopping, a lot of walking, saw my dorm where I'll be staying, saw my future school, and did some tourist-y things at Navy Pier. The city is so beautiful and so surprisingly clean, I fell in love with it on the first day. There are so many shopping areas around me, so many artistic places, and amazing architecture. I'm so excited to move there and start a brand new life, it's going to be fun.

(my mom snapped this picture of me as I was instagramming a picture of myself, what a creep)

Here was some music that kept me occupied on my flight (oh man the view from the plane amazing!) 

And yesterday, Sunday, I went with my best friend and another friend to see Dia Frampton. Although she didn't play any Meg & Dia songs it was still a great preformance and it was a fun night out. 

^ my shitty iPhone pictures. 

I didn't get any videos, but she did play my favorite song, Daniel, so here's a video form youtube of it. 

1D Weekend

On Saturday and Sunday I went to go see One Direction. On Saturday I picked up Karen and met up with Christine at the Gibson Amphitheatre in LA, our seats weren't the best but I had the best time. There were so many crazy things that happened so I'll just let my twitter explain it all. 

On Sunday I went by myself to the Anaheim show. I had such close seats it was AMAZING, but entertainment wise, the saturday show was better. I did see Eleanor, she looked flawless and I wanted her outfit so bad! Here;s a picture that doesn't give justice to just how close my seat was, but here. 

My outfit for the sunday show ^ 

Tomorrow I am headed to Chicago at 3 in the morning, it's gonna be fun! This is currently my suitcase that's only going to get fuller once I finally visit TopShop. 

always a mood lifter

Josh McBride

Take me to the attic ladder
In the barn with broken floors
With your boots of spanish leather
And my hat knit out of yarn
You are in the seat beside me
You are in my dreams at night

No One To Let You Down

When you got no one around you
There’s no one to let you down
When you got no one 
There’s no one to let you down

2am

Sometimes I feel like no one other than my parents are going to miss me when I'm gone. I feel like I'm always the one to put in effort to talk to people I know irl, I never get invited to do things with my best friend even though he's supposed to be my best friend, he never even bothers to talk to me when we're not in person with each other, and everyone else that I am "friends" with never bother inviting me to anything either. I feel so invisible. People say they'll miss me, but isn't that what everyone is supposed to say? Hell, my best friend has yet to say that to me. I really hope when I move to Chicago I find a good group of friends, willing to go places with me (unlike my own best friend who seems to shoot down anytime I want to do something with him), have fun, and don't treat me like I'm invisible. Maybe it's just late night feelings bubbling up in me, but, no, it can't be, because I've been feeling this for way longer. I used to have a tradition with my best friend, to hang out every friday, but then one day it just stopped, he never wanted to do anything anymore, and now when he does do stuff he never invites me and he goes with people I know for a fact he makes fun of. I just feel like I've lost my best friend before I've even moved, and that hurts more than anything. I know once I leave he'll make no effort to ever talk to me, I can just feel it. My internet friends, on the other hand, the ones I've met and gone to shows with, I feel like they'll miss me more than my best friend will. Now that's sad, it shouldn't be that way, but it's all I've been feeling recently. I'm moving away, and the one person I care most about could care less. I'm moving away, but no one seems to care. I wish I didn't care, but I really do. I really do.

1 year!

Wow blog! We've reached our 1 year anniversary! Actually, it was on my graduation day (aka the last post) but I didn't realized it until now, so I guess I should write something in here, just to commemorate this special occasion.

I started this blog as a way to not speak too much about my more ~indie~ side since my followers on tumblr seem to have no interest in that type of music. But over the year, it's become more of a haven for myself to somewhat blow off steam, or just to type out a text post about my boring life since my tumblr is more of a obsessive fangirl blog.

Nothing much has changed in the past year since my very first post. I love Arcade Fire just as much as I did then. I do love One Direction and Big Time Rush now, which don't really fit in to the rest of the music I listen to, but that's alright! Haha. I'm a high school graduate already. Heading to Downtown Chicago in less than 3 months to study Creative Writing. I still have the biggest dreams that scare the living daylights out of me, but I still want to chase them - because what's dreaming without fearing? My love of pastels has grown much more. My clothing collection has expanded to dresses and a new collar obsession. I still have a love for the violin. I still watch Doctor Who obsessively. I do love Sherlock now too (I'm on the second Barnes & Noble Sherlock Holmes Collection book). Most of the shoes I own are still black. I still stay on the internet way longer than I should. But hey, I also got a facebook now!
This past year has been wonderful and this new one will be as well. Lots more posts are going to be coming once I move. I'll chronicle my move from the suburbs of California to the city of Chicago, my new life there, college, and everything that comes with starting a whole new life. So stick with me and I promise I'll post gold.

I don't really have a celebration song in mind so I'll post a few of my latest addictions.

I did it

I graduated tonight.






It feels so good to finally say that.

(I've had this song in my head ALL DAY)